I started this blog for the sole reason of “letting it out” if your a momma a stay at home one at that you understand the struggle of communication. And if your a momma like me with children close in age (2 year old and 3 month old) you’ve probably gone through that “post partum depression” or “baby blues”. The sleepless nights. The screaming. Those darn terrible twos. Sometimes we just need an outlet and I’ve set out to make this mine. So bare with me and follow my journey as I explore this thing called MoThErHoOd!
Where it all began.
2016. That’s where it all began. I was 19. He was 20.
We went to high school together but I was the band t shirt and skinny jeans and he was the Abercrombie and Jordan’s. We were NOTHING alike. But we’re out of school now. I’m no longer the “scene girl” he messages me on Instagram and it’s instant chemistry. Love at first message you could say. A week later were dating and a week after that we’re LIVING IN FLORIDA TOGETHER. 4 states away from all friends and family. Crazy. Irrational. Stupid. BUT WORTH IT. Beaches and dates, walks and pools, experiences and exploring.. We built such an unbreakable bond. But being pricey we only lasted there for 10 months.
We’re back in our home state now, back with our friends and family life was back normal. UNTIL. July 7th 2017, we found out I was expecting 🖤 October we found out it was a little boy and agreed on the name Zaiden. We could not have been more excited. Finally. Our own little family. Come December. Christmas Day to be exact he asked me to marry him! Obviously I said YES! 2 months later on February 27th our little boy was born planned cesarian. (Breech) 7lbs 10oz 19 1/2 inches of pure perfection. Our family was complete.
A year later. Our little boy is walking and talking and a complete DADDYS boy. But mommy starts getting a very familiar feeling. February 8th 2019 we find out we’re expecting ANOTHER little baby. May we find out it’s another little boy and agreed on the name Quintyn. 🖤 two months later on July 7th we got married! Officially the Jenkins family! The months flew by and it was baby time! A repeat cesarian on 0ctober 16th 2019 Quintyn was born 8lbs 13oz and 20 1/2 inches long. We were COMPLETE. Married, 2 boys. We were happy!
A month after having Quintyn I fell into a deep depression.. couldn’t get out of bed yet couldn’t sleep. I no longer played with Zaiden. Quintyn was diagnosed with severe colic. The screaming. The tears. I knew it was time to get help. I went to the doctors and talked to my OBGYN and she mentioned Zoloft ( I don’t do pharmaceuticals yes I’m THAT mom) so I did research “how to get rid of postpartum depression” after articles upon articles I realized my biggest problem. The underlying reason. I was anti social. I didn’t talk to people. I didn’t express my feelings. I didn’t have an outlet. So I started writing.
I kicked post partum depressions BUTT! I’m back to me. I’m happy. I’m lively. And now I’m here to tell my everyday story and expose the real TRUTHS of motherhood in hopes I can help other mommas while having an outlet to help me! Thank you for taking your time to read this and please follow my journey and life as a everyday momma!
All About The Jenkins 